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Most of the time, I find myself being selfish. I shall not simply admit my mistake and I shall let other people to take the blame.

Only with my dear husband, I put my ego aside and I let my guards down.

Perhaps I do not pray hard enough

Perhaps I need to mend my relationship with Allah S.W.T instead of being too concern about my relationship with humans.

Am about to start something new.

Now, it is not only me. I cannot simply turn my back to those who need me the most. My husband and my unborn baby.

People said, always keep your pray to yourself.

Mama said, we shall not know if Allah answers our prayer or not but we must always believe that Allah knows better.

If HE did not grant you such pray, always remember that Allah has better plan for you.

Be content always.

Patience dear heart, you may not always get what you want.

This is life. Remember.

 

 

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Love

Because I am too obsessed about Love

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
― Bob Marley

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Cooking now is a passion

I suppose I keep on saying that cooking is not my forte.

However, nowadays I believe it is a myth. Well, to be honest my cooking skill not only improved but it has brought me to a different level of cooking.

I know  I know...it is to good to be true right?

Let just say, once you are married it seems that the urge to cook and to be good at cooking seems to improve.

I would have rated my cooking skill at least 1 star before I got married but now, I think I deserved a 3 and half stars I think. *smirking*

My big thank you to my support system (my dear husband) whom has been my number 1 supporter. He has been such a good husband and listener. I always keep complaining to him that I am not a good cook. But being him, He keeps on encouraging me to cook though it was not that good when I first cook for him. He never complains. Thank you so much baby!

Now, am proud to say I can cook anything as long as I been given chances to cook.

Last week I managed to spent some time with my dear husband in Lumut. Alhamdulillah, it went well. For the first time in my life, I manage to cook four dishes on my own. Kudos to myself!

I KNOW...I am that good kan... *beaming*

Now, am so looking forward to cook raya dishes for my baby.

Hopefully it goes well as well. In Shaa Allah.



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Love

Love.

I always thought I understand love.

When I first know my husband, I believe it is love. Though I never thought I could love this fast and this much. I know, he is not in love with me as much as I did when we first know each other. I mean, lets us be real and get real. Men do not simply love. Men are literally forward. Women in other hand, we are literally complicated. We tend to say or do things when we do not even meant it. Yes, we women are cool like that.

I know love when I lay at night thinking of him instead of sleeping. I know love when I cry because of him. I know love when my heart race when I first look at him. I know love when I cannot even describe what love is.

I know it may sound cliché but this is love in my point of view.

Sometimes I do wish I could understand more about love. Yes, am so obsessed about love. I love to love.

I have been his wife for almost 2 months now. One thing I learn about marriage is “To Compromise”.

Well, yours truly is not good at compromise or should I say, I never compromise at all when it comes to love. But Alhamdulillah, with my dearest husband I learn to be compromising a lot.

For the first time in my life, it felt really good to actually do things you do not normally do to other people.

Now I really enjoy cooking, washing and cleaning for dear husband.

This is love. This is me in love with her own husband.

“Thank you baby for everything”

 

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Am starting new

Yerp..am starting fresh here. I have been neglecting my own blog for quite some time. To be honest, I love my old blog. It is all about me, about whom am I before. Now yes, life is different. I am not the old me. I may look like me but life does not permit me to be the old me. Let just say, I have changed!

Oh yes, am no longer single. I am happily married to someone whom I never thought I could love this much. I will be blogging about my wedding soon. There are too much to tell. (Excited to tell)

So yes, am not going to update “namasayatihah” anymore. Life was so much different now. Now am happy to say, am a working wife!

I guess, that’s all for now.

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