Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Off lately


It is not only has been awhile but it seems ages since I last blog.

Not really into blogging nowadays with the existence of Dayre. Yes, using dayre to blog is way better as it is hard to be too attached with your laptop once you have a baby.

Being a mother is definitely a new level for me. I have been a wife only a year plus ago and a mother 4 months ago. Let just say, am not tired being both though life is quite a struggle when you have two to take care of. Alhamdulillah, your sincerely is not much of a sick person. I guess that is why Allah let us women bear children instead of men. Men might be strong in term of physicality and personality. But emotionally, hands down to women!

I won’t be talking about gender equality as I do believe in no such thing.

Yes, I am a woman myself but let face the fact that we cannot be as equal as men. There are reasons why Allah create us men and women. Men is always a better leader. Being a woman with quite a strong personality, I always want my husband to lead. I may be an outspoken person at work but at home, I am nothing but his wife. And my responsibility as wife is to be a dutiful wife to my lovely wedded husband.

Being dutiful does not mean that you have to be obedient for no reason. Being dutiful means that you have to be able to cater all his good needs and to point out any wrong doings. A husband is merely human, you cannot expect him to be all perfect. So yes, am not into women globalisation stuff. I am merely woman with my own needs and my family is my gravity.

Emotionally stable lately. Thank you Allah for giving me a beautiful daughter of mine. I never thought that one day this day would come. But Alhamdulillah, Allah is indeed the best planner of all.

I am very pessimistic when it comes to love as I always believe that I won’t be able to find one. Yet, it does not stop me from seeing men. It is just that am not really a believer when it comes to find “the one”. I believe in love yes but not in finding a true mate.

But Allah is indeed full of mercy. I met my husband when I was seeing someone else. Am not really into him at first but when he never fail to make me smile and him being so consistent, I sort of like falling for him. One thing I love about him is that he never fails not even once to wish me “good morning” every single day. To be honest, I never met a man like him. I am truly lucky right?

Hence, there is no such thing as perfect relationship. We also have some ups and downs in our life. But it does not make us love each other less. One thing about us is that we practice honest communication daily. We do not simply keep secret from each other. Truth is always the hardest to digest but am always positive. It is not easy to deal with past but Alhamdulillah, when you keep looking forward and be positive, things are going to be alright.

Though life for us are yet to be smooth but I do believe, Allah has great plan for us. It takes patience to appreciate life.