On House Issue

Sometimes it is easy to write and tell off your feeling through writing rather to face the reality itself. Reality is not that bad. But somehow reality comes with conflict. I have so much thing in my plate right now, so another conflict especially about house is not welcome.

We are so into having a house or I should say our own home sweet home. Everything were in place till someone open up their big mouth and start talking about house value.

Honestly, I do not care much about any value. The idea of having house is to stay. I hate when other people think that they know better about how other people should run their life. In this case, I blame my own lovely mother.

Trust me, I love my mom with my whole heart but sometimes she can be quite difficult.

With current economy, current oil & gas situation I guess we have to put up with what we have now. No, am not complaining. Truly blessed with our current life but one need to plan further.

Life is tough. But we ought to live through it anyway.

Am trying not to thinking too much.

 

/nf

Something new is coming

Too excited even to breathe.

Guess having someone to share this kind of excitement makes me more excited.

KAYNAJ

Not a great chef

Too excited to cook for Firdaus. Too excited to unleash my so called hidden talent. *snort

I have a lot of passion when it comes to food. The thought of food bring so much happiness in life. Am truly lucky to be able to marry one with such passion like mine. Both of us are truly obsessed with cheese. We even passed that genes to our lovely daughter. *pray for Najla

Back to cooking for Firdaus. He has requested yours truly to cook Salmon Grill Brocolli with soy sauce, Mashed potato with cheese (cheese is a must in our menu) and for dessert I decided to make us Molten Chocolate cake. *excited

Actually I have a lot to share but time does not permit me to blog too long today. I miss the good old days where I can simply blog daily. Guess, age does change you and yes motherhood surely change me.

 

Okay bye!

/nf

Ever Wonder

Have you ever wonder if life is different for you?

Well, I did once a while. What if I were not married then? What if I never met my husband then?

Typical me, I love to think about ‘what if’ sometimes.

I bet my life would be truly different without having Najla in my arms. The thought of not having Najla in my life would truly kill me. Honestly*

I do think most of us do think about this too right? A wise person once told me, you can never move on if you keep on thinking about past and ‘what if’. The ugly truth is, life goes on no matter what or which path you took. Life never promise to be fair but Allah will be fair to you. Always put your trust in HIM and HE will guide you through.

I do have some regrets in past. But I know, nothing I could do to erase those memories in past. I do know one thing, keep doing good and good will come to you.

Perhaps, someone out there wish she could be where I am now. Perhaps she wishes to have the kind of family I have now and perhaps she thought she could have the kind of life I am in now. Too bad, life does not permit you to have what you want but life shall give you what you need instead.

I wish you nothing but the very best in life for you.

*You know who you are

In the mood

Okay let just say, I am in the mood to blog this past few days.

Or perhaps I am inspired to blog.

I have so many things running through my mind daily. Sometimes, even my dearest husband told me to slow down a bit. I tend to have many things to do in a day with too little time. Not to say that I am that efficient but let just say, I love to get things done a lot faster. As a result I tend to be frustrated when I failed to do so. Well yes, that is just me. But I do think I am a lot better now on managing my own task. I am a bit calm I would say. Thanks to you husband.

Now, where were we? Ohh yes on me having this random thoughts about life. Sometimes I cannot quite believe on what I have achieved now. Truth is, sometimes I do think my reality is too good to be true. Yes, I am obviously always content of what I have and own but sometimes I do wonder, there are more women out there crave for what I have in life but yet I tend to take my life for granted sometimes. Silly me right?

However, upon that I have decided to have more patience and to be more considerate. Though yes it is hard to do so when it is not your norm but I am a believer when it comes to a good change. I always believe people can be good as long as they get the chance to do so. In life, one need to be positive to see the light in someone else life. Being too negative not only made you unhappy but it takes away your humanity as well.

Life of course are not meant to be perfect but as a muslim we can only pray for the best and work towards being a good and righteous person.

I guess being a mother makes me a better person as a whole. I am no longer selfish as I know I have to care for my daughter's need above everything else. In a way it makes me happy instead to be able to see her smile and have all that comfort in her life. I would say, being a mother makes one feel more sated and serene.

Thank you Allah S.W.T for everything in life.

May Allah bless us all.

#Imissmyhusband

Sudden post

Nobody said it was easy.

I was merely quoted above saying these past few weeks. Thanks to hot weather, all is not well lately.

However, one shall not complaint. In a way, sickness is ALLAH's way to test us and to keep us near HIM always.

I have always care less about fever until my baby girl caught up with one. Not an ordinary one I supposed. Seeing her too weak to even to eat honestly I felt so hopeless. So this is how it felt when your darling child is not feeling well.

It is truly a challenged for me being a working mom. My attendance was really bad and I cannot even focus at work though I managed to get things done but it is hard when you left your heart at home.

I even thought that I want to quit my daily job but current economy does not permit me to do so.

Am in need of plan B.

2016 is all about making more money. Not only for yours truly but for our little family of three (for now). We have lots of dreams in the making. With Allah's guidance and blessing, we shall make it happen.

Ameen.

Perhaps I will be ranting about missing my other half later.

For now, lets focus on work.

/nf